ive been gone for a while

so i know i havent done this in a while but for some reason i felt like doing it tonight...
so recently i have done some thinking about my life and what is possible for me to do and i am going to move back home since i cant afford wku anymore. i have been struggling with my grades ever since coming here and i have been unable to bring them up enough for financial aid needs. im really depressed and stresses this semester about moving back home. i know that i wouldnt be going home if i hadnt screwed up so much in the last 2 semesters but this is what i get and i will live with it the best that i can. with going back home i am going to try and get a full-time job for the coming semester then go to jcc next fall. im really nervous about moving back home since ive never enjoyed living there even when i was younger. my mom and dad have not made it enjoyable and i dont see how it could get any better as it is unless a miracle happens which would be nice. im really going to miss the wonderful people i met here and i know i can still count on some of them that i have met here no matter what happens and im hoping ill be able to come visit some next semester.
i really gonna miss everyone and i love you guys more than any of you could ever imagine

:)

after talking to some people last night i have finally been able to forgive my father for all of the stuff he has done in my past. after talking with them i decided to talk to my dad and my mom and i told my dad that i had forgiven him for all things that he has done and i was finally able to talk to my mom and she agreed to let me get baptized :) i had asked her over winter break about it and she said that i wasnt ready for it but i finally talked to her last night and i was able to change her mind and now she is fine with me getting baptized :-) i dont know when im getting baptized but i know that i am getting baptized :) soon

feelings of home

im finally home
it took almost a month to get back here but man was it worth the wait.
this is probably the first place that i have actually felt that i belong.
i have amazing friends here that are always there for me when i need to talk and always know what to say when i need to hear it especially if im acting like an idiot and worrying about things i really dont need to.
at the beginning of the year i met up with some people that introduced me to christ for the first time that i could remeber and since then i have been trying to live my life like i should have been living it my whole life.
sometime i find it hard to follow him but i know that without him i would not be here today and i am thankful beyond words or what he has done for mankind that he didnt need to but chose to.
and i think that he is the biggest reason for why am finally happy for one of the first times in my life.
because before i got to western it felt that really didnt belong anywhere in oldham county and it was amazing to just be able to escape from my old life and start a brand new one at western kentucky.
one of the best things he has changed in my life is the girl that he has put in it. she is probably one of the best things that has ever happened to me and even though she is no longer at western she is still a huge part of my life and i never want to lose.